It's always morning in my mind...

2012-01-28T11:10:00.000+01:00

It was a mistake to move back home. Even though it's just temporarily..
But if i don't get the money to that place i've found then "temporarily" can end up being a pretty long time..
It was a fucking mistake, i can't, i can't live here!
I can't stand it. Thought i could. I actually thought it would be at least kind a .. nice..
But it's not. It's so not!
How come i always end up at one place,
then after a little while i can't be there anymore and decides to move.
Then when i move i end up with nothing but regret.
I just shouldn't follow my own wishes anymore.
Nothing good EVER comes out of following the things i want.
"Don't wish.. Don't fucking START.. wishing only wounds the heart."

I will never learn.

2012-01-28T10:01:00.002+01:00

2012-01-28T09:53:00.003+01:00

And if my skin and bones are not that pretty
I lost myself, but I found the snitty
And I swear I'd make you understand
If you would just shut up and hold my hand..

2012-01-28T09:42:00.002+01:00

2012-01-27T16:00:00.002+01:00

.. and leave me with my sins.

2012-01-27T11:20:00.002+01:00

I thought I'd shot you down,
I thought I'd 've thrown away the key.
Then, skipping and tripping you ring my bell
You keep running back to me..

2012-01-27T11:18:00.000+01:00

Der var for et stykke tid siden en anonym person på formspring der ville se et nyt billed af mig. ..
Fandt dog aldrig ud af om personen faktisk overhovedet kender til min blog..
Så dette er muligvis fuldstændigt meningsløst.. men here it goes... brand new.

2012-01-27T09:52:00.001+01:00

Jeg har købt mig en dværgpapegøje igen..
Blå og sorthovedet, ikke rosenhovedet som Rosalinda var.
Ja.

2012-01-27T09:29:00.002+01:00

2012-01-26T09:32:00.002+01:00

Honesty is killig me.. i feel it burning holes in me..

2012-01-26T09:17:00.002+01:00

2012-01-25T13:22:00.001+01:00

- I reach but i feel only air at night
Not you, not love .. just nothing

It's been 2 hours.
It's been 16 hours.
It's been a week.
It's been 15 days.
It's been 3 months.
It's been a year.
It's been 13 months.

2012-01-25T09:14:00.000+01:00

it is not the spoken word
and it is not my shadowed mind
it is more the not knowing
exactly what you've left behind..

2012-01-25T09:06:00.002+01:00

2012-01-24T16:23:00.001+01:00

I sold my soul just to hide what's right..

2012-01-24T16:21:00.002+01:00

Or.. at least I was.

Hard to believe it's been a year..

2012-01-24T13:07:00.002+01:00

You give me all but the reason why

2012-01-24T08:39:00.003+01:00

2012-01-24T08:36:00.001+01:00

I hold the invitation in my hand
You smile and I don't understand
When you tell me the writing ain't yours
You were the one thing I could count on...

After all...

2012-01-23T16:29:00.000+01:00

I shouldn't care. I'm suppose to care less and less as the days goes by.
But somehow i find myself missing instead.
Ridiculous...
All so fucking.. stupid.
yes, stupid. stupid.

2012-01-23T09:36:00.002+01:00

2012-01-23T09:35:00.002+01:00

If it was a game why couldn't i play?

2012-01-22T08:32:00.002+01:00

2012-01-22T08:31:00.002+01:00

I'll watch you disappear...

2012-01-21T09:47:00.002+01:00

2012-01-21T09:46:00.002+01:00

You're a regular decorated emergency.

2012-01-21T09:40:00.002+01:00

2012-01-20T15:40:00.000+01:00

You take the breath right out of me!

2012-01-20T12:35:00.002+01:00

When all is said and done, i'll be the one to leave you in your misery and hate what you've become.

2012-01-20T12:34:00.002+01:00

2012-01-19T19:12:00.002+01:00

No longer live that life.

2012-01-19T11:08:00.002+01:00

2012-01-18T21:02:00.002+01:00

.. og som en genfærd dukker hun op.. Men hun forsvinder når jeg vender mig om..

2012-01-18T13:35:00.002+01:00

2012-01-18T13:32:00.000+01:00

This one came from looking
This one opened twice
These two seem as smooth as silk,
flush against my eyes
This one needed stitches and
This one came from rings
This one isn't even there,
but I feel it more because you don't care
This one had it coming
This one found a vein
This one was an accident,
but never gave me pain
This one was my fathers and
This one you can't see
This one had me scared to death,
But I guess I should be glad I'm not dead.

2012-01-18T10:35:00.002+01:00

2012-01-18T10:25:00.003+01:00

Terrified of what's inside...

2012-01-17T09:44:00.002+01:00

2012-01-16T10:23:00.001+01:00

"Need more friends with wings
All the angels i know
Put concrete in my veins
I'd always walk home alone
So i became lifeless
Just like my telephone"

2012-01-16T09:39:00.002+01:00

2012-01-16T09:38:00.000+01:00

You need some peace of mind, no fear of what's behind
You think you've won this fight, you've only lost your mind.

2012-01-16T09:36:00.003+01:00

... things sorth of couldn't get much worse.

2012-01-16T08:40:00.002+01:00

2012-01-15T20:09:00.001+01:00

I can't believe it...

2012-01-15T09:34:00.002+01:00

2012-01-15T09:33:00.000+01:00

Never again.

2012-01-15T09:16:00.002+01:00

2012-01-15T09:15:00.003+01:00

".. Oh, that's right; i have no one!"

2012-01-14T10:22:00.002+01:00

2012-01-14T10:21:00.003+01:00

You gotta fight just to make it through!

2012-01-14T09:43:00.003+01:00

2012-01-14T09:42:00.002+01:00

I know nothing of your kind...

2012-01-13T21:52:00.002+01:00

2012-01-13T21:51:00.001+01:00

stormy thoughts

2012-01-12T16:41:00.002+01:00

2012-01-11T20:04:00.001+01:00

No longer. It's over.

2012-01-11T19:58:00.002+01:00

I'm not that girl...

2012-01-11T19:55:00.001+01:00

2012-01-11T10:28:00.002+01:00

2012-01-11T10:27:00.002+01:00

Here we go again.

2012-01-11T10:07:00.002+01:00

2012-01-10T21:11:00.000+01:00

I was on my way home from copenhagen today and i almost called you.
.. almost. so what stopped me? Reality, i guess.
You were never there but i was even though you never realized.
and i'm glad you didn't. What would i have become?
But in the end of this it was me.. me, me, me who turned you down.
You wanted me to be there, i could see it in your eyes.
But i "needed to go home", so i wasn't there.
I created the end. It wasn't you. You, you, you.

2012-01-09T19:23:00.001+01:00

2012-01-09T19:21:00.000+01:00

.. how grateful i was to be part of the mysterie "to love.. and to be.. loved."

Long ago...

2012-01-09T19:04:00.001+01:00

Yesterday is gone now
& tomorrow isn't sure
Today is all i'm given
& what i have is yours

I have nothing - I don't want it
I have nothing - I don't need it
I have nothing - You can have it

2012-01-09T19:01:00.000+01:00

2012-01-09T10:57:00.002+01:00

Show me what's it like to dream in black and white..

2012-01-09T10:27:00.000+01:00

2012-01-09T10:19:00.003+01:00

I drink coffee like water and i still never know what to say.
I still don't know how to get out of bed half the time.
It's not pretty or endearing. I whisper you secrets,
I am still looking to be saved, sometimes i am so weak,
sometimes i am so strong, here you go, i will give you
everything for one more chance.
My heart is ugly,
but it could be all yours .

2012-01-09T09:59:00.001+01:00

It's not enough, it never is!

2012-01-09T09:53:00.002+01:00

2012-01-08T12:23:00.000+01:00

Surround me
It's easy
To fall apart
Completely

2012-01-08T10:44:00.003+01:00

2012-01-08T10:43:00.000+01:00

.. but everything's cool as long as i'm getting thinner.

2012-01-08T10:38:00.002+01:00

2012-01-07T15:22:00.000+01:00

I miss her. I don't miss her. No, i won't miss her. I miss her.

2012-01-07T14:39:00.002+01:00

.. and she would fall

2012-01-07T14:03:00.000+01:00

so soft, so young, so lost and oh so ~~beautiful~~...

2012-01-06T09:40:00.002+01:00

2012-01-05T17:51:00.003+01:00

Farvel facebook.

2012-01-05T10:36:00.000+01:00

If anyone know anyone with or know where you can get
a Munchkin cat, please be kind and tell me!

2012-01-05T09:54:00.002+01:00

2012-01-05T09:53:00.000+01:00

Got a secret, can you keep it? Swear this one you'll save...
Better lock it in your pocket, taking this one to the grave...

2012-01-04T14:13:00.002+01:00

2012-01-04T14:11:00.003+01:00

.. The life of the wicked should be made brief - For the rest of us death will be a relief!! ..

2012-01-04T13:45:00.003+01:00

2012-01-04T13:45:00.000+01:00

"What was his crime?"
"Foolishness."

2012-01-03T16:49:00.002+01:00

2012-01-02T10:01:00.006+01:00

2012-01-02T10:01:00.001+01:00

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2012-01-01T15:45:00.002+01:00

2012-01-01T12:25:00.003+01:00

.. but i never intended all this madness, never ..

2012-01-01T12:11:00.000+01:00

Mit nytår forløb... ikke helt efter planen..
Det kom til at indholde baboobil, helsingør hospital, hillerøds lukkede afdeling...
Da klokken slog 12 sad jeg så dér, indlagt. Igen.
Udskrev mig selv klokken 7 imorges.
Jeg hader at jeg udsætter mine veninder for det her!
De er helt igennem fantastiske og tackler det så godt!
og jeg.. jeg fucker bare op gang på gang.

2011-12-31T09:55:00.002+01:00

2011-12-30T10:55:00.000+01:00

Everything changed into lies that drop like acid rain.

2011-12-30T10:53:00.002+01:00

I wonder...

2011-12-30T10:45:00.002+01:00

My contactpersons asked me three questions some days ago
and i'm suppose to give my answers today.

Since i want to move does it have anything do to with this place?
What would it take for me to be able to move?
Future?

Well... The answers are pretty simple; maybe, i don't know and i have none.
It's gonna be a real short meeting.....
I think i have to create some fake answers. Say something which sounds very mature
and shit.. give some good reasons, talk about how ready i am..
Not that i'm not ready, for i am for sure ready to move away from here.
Or perhaps i should just stick to my real, short, pointless answers..
As long as i don't say something which may make them worried.
Then i'll just get hospitalized and i refuse to let that happen again!
Okay, enough of this.
I'll figure it out. .. somehow..

Change of plans...

2011-12-30T10:35:00.001+01:00

2011-12-30T09:52:00.001+01:00

I hate the way...

2011-12-30T09:50:00.002+01:00